me-and-mai-weirdness

Hey Hi How Ya Doin(:

Tue, 25 Jun 2013 20:38:24 +0100

so hey. its been like...a yr and a half since ive even touched this website...i never get on it xD updates? i dated cam and i broke up and so did me and zach...now im fwb anyone i can(: im not as depressed as i used to be and i can prolly chalk that up to cam and zach teaching me how to love maiself or at least starting to(: while i was with them i stopped doing all tht bad stuff except for the sext part upgraded to sex. with both of them lol. now im back to doin all the bad stuff again..it just hurts so good! and im now a senior O: SCARYYY!

Holy

Thu, 10 Nov 2011 02:08:50 +0100

Holy shit its been forevaaa sonce ive been on her. and im lik suicidal lol. seems to be a running theme huh? well neway i got as close to cutting as i cold today :/. oh and new bf. Cameron Cordell. fb him..gtg

Again.

Thu, 10 Nov 2011 02:07:24 +0100

Again,

I feel the gray and grime,

Block out all the Sunshine.

and Again,

I question if i should stay,

In this Bullshit of a world; if i may.

I. Hate. Life.

Wed, 27 Apr 2011 23:44:24 +0100

so im grounded. and mai mom haz mai ipod and phone which haz sum *cough* baad shit. i rlly hope she doesnt find this. im sneakin on this while she out to get bread so ill mak it brief so i still hav time to erase the histroy
Bad shit thati hav recently:
smoke
drink
sext (not a typo....yeahh)
and im lik depressed and sumtimes suicidal and i rlly wanna run away buuuuut idk if i will

so srry for not answerin mai fone
lik damn ppl u all seem to want to txt me soo much when im grounded
oh and thx sam and samira and cj
when u got the txt sayin mom found out bout me and cj THAT WAZ MAI MOM WHO SENT THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yeah so imma go
ill elaborate later

Depressed :[

Thu, 27 Jan 2011 03:12:31 +0100

Soo to all mai loyal followers (ckricket noiseses) sry havnt been able to get on herrr. So the rundown: Christmas=...mmm not so christmas-y feeling...like it didnt feel lik the holidays AT ALL! Ikr? Sadd. Umm about two weeks ago I went to Berts house:]. It made me happy...while I was there. As soon as I got home I was in like a huge slump and when I went to bed I wasn't feeling to good (turns out I had Influenza A a.k.a. the Flu) and I ended up rlllllllly missing mai old life and cried maiself to sleep. Oh the joys of life. Which actually lead me into mai next two topics. 1) Depression and 2) The flu days..I'll do the flu first. it seems shorter. one rlly tmi peice of info: last wednsday I woke up and mai ass HURT LIKE HELL! Like ik thts rlly weird butt it rlly hurt (hah pun intended). OHHH SPEAKING OF WEDNSDAY AND TODAY BEING THAT DAY A NEW CRIMINAL MINDS IS RECORDING RIGHTS NOWS!!~!!!1 YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYZ!!!!!!!!!!~1!!! Its about the couple that kills! anywayz back on subject. Where waz I? *skims up*.... OH! THE FLU! RIGHT! so yea I felt terrible and so i was sick and stayed home the rest of the week. now i haz a shit load of work to mak up yay..Nows ons tos depressions.....I think I might be mildly depressed.....I just did a project involving depression. OH SHIZ GOTSTA GO!!

Ack!!

Tue, 21 Dec 2010 02:52:05 +0100

omg. Han't been on here for like half a year, (ok so mayb only 4 months) mai stomach feels like its going to EXPLODE! but no matter. all u wanna hear about is mai life rite? yeah. sure. soooooo omg ppl its almost new years!! like its almost 2011!!! then we'll only ha lik basically 2 yrs left to live!!! AHHHH TIS APPROACHING FAST!! anywaz ur like "pssh. fuck that its almost christmas." well this yrs gonna b a "tough haul" as mai dad would say. yea lik wer actually trying to get the most/best presents we can. well i got news DAD. thts not what christmas is about. its about family and friends and them actually being alive, well, and TOGETHER. yea. so imma get off here and add some new things on the site, then go upstairs to get mai ass beat. woohoo.
Final words: sun, oh dear sun, I MISS YEW SOOO MUCH!! COOOOOOME BAACK PLZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!

Birthday

Thu, 05 Aug 2010 17:37:38 +0100

MAI BIRTHDAY WAS TWO DAYS AGO!!! and i got lots of stuff i wanted.
when i signed into yahoo today it said mai account has been suspended or cancelled..i was sad. but it let me create a new address.imanicake405@yahoo.com =) and it transfered all mai pesoal info. but now i cant get onto yahoo profiles (_ _)

So yesterday was mai first day at band camp. REALLY AWKWARD. had to learn 4 days worth of stuf in 1 day. yea. plus i knew no one ther so i was lik uhh. and i hav to memorize 4 pieces of music by sunday. great. first i hav to find the right notes since most of the pieces r in 2, 3, or 4 keys. wonderful. oh and the osu game that coffmans going to? well ill b on the other team... so ill still get to see mai friends tho!!!!! yay! but idk if ill b able to...bcuz itll be weird if i just walk ovr to the other band and go "HEY!!!! Whats up I missed you guys!!" yea awkward. the word awkward is spelled awdwardly. just sayin. so imma sign off. dueces

Paint!!!

Mon, 28 Jun 2010 17:35:39 +0100

eeehh i got poppy. mom still hasnt picked out her color yet. i told her she should get light blue. dominique got jazzy. its a purple color of course. serenia got sea green. the poppy looks red tho. didja know color affects mood? lite blue is supposed to lower blood pressure. red is supposed to be an aggresive color. figures rite? but isnt it weird that red represents anger and love? ha

New House

Thu, 24 Jun 2010 00:57:46 +0100

Thursday or friday were going to pick our paint and start painting our rooms. Jay's paying for all the new carpet for moms graduation present. Probably also bcuz he didnt help move bcuz he was sick then he and mom had issues about i dont even know what. buuuuut mom wont let me paint mai walls dark red and get black carpet. she says its depressing. anna says ther stoner colors bcuz when her mom was on drugs those wer the colors in her room. whatever. what color should i paint it tho?

Eh.

Fri, 11 Jun 2010 18:06:11 +0100

Sry bout tht last one. touch wont let me write in the body section for sum reason. stupid. wow i havnt been on since april? geez i forgot bout it till now. not tht i could get on it anywaz wit fam aroound. wonder if any1 is still reading this?? prob not........... at annas. lyric and quest just threw a fit bcuz they had to take a nap. they need it. lost mai fone....think i dropped it outside of Fazoli's and the worst part is that it was raining. Hard. Locater (just another way for mai mom to spy on me) said its still ther but the lady said its not actually in the resturant. well mai fone is prob finished. whoops. mamas gonna b pissed. Ooh brb, facebook+bathroom break...woo sry. tho u dont evn know how long i was gone. I could hav been gone for hours, days, weeks evn YEARS!!! and u wouldnt hav known. haha jk about tht. i get crazy sumtimes... i miss mai friends. i dont think its sunk in yet tht i mite not evr see them again. tho i hav to get a few things from ashleys house, and i hav a birthday, and eemmas bday party waz supossed to b today and she nvr gav me the info soooo i still wont see them in HS... im mooooving...........well gotta go. this is imani, signing off and saying "Have A Happy Summer All Of Y'all!!